Where Do I Begin?
I’ve received a lot of advice, from a lot of people I respect, and even more strangers, to stay here-now. Most of the people I interact with, are strangers to me. They tell me to find some way to remain in the present, and I get it. They're not wrong. When I was 16, I met my father. He told me I had ‘one foot in the future, one foot in the past, and I was pissing all over today.’ It stuck. How could a person only 16 years in this world be stuck in the past and unable to attach to this moment? 18 years later, a long-lost-sister would remind me to come back to Earth, and in that moment I feel like it saved our future. I want to believe that, anyway. I should have been the big sister, but am so grateful for her emotional maturity. So day-to-day, they are all totally right. It’s important to recognize when you have totally left Earth, to Space-travel between your future and your past, in a manic and nauseating, nightmare! But when that becomes impossible, one must return to the past...